2010年6月2日星期三
无奈的人生
日子一天一天的过着。我们的身体其实只是靠着那一口气来维持着。吸入与呼出。当这规律被打乱后我们的生命可能就此终结。
每星期二我都会到医院去上课。看着不同个案的病人。我们从他们的身上学到从课本上学不到的知识。也学会医生如何为病人看病。星期二的课很沉重。有得在拥挤与闷热的医院里上课。这也是人生的另一种体验。这些我都能克服。然而我却看到也许一般人所看不到的一面。人生就是如此的无奈。
我们从出生的那一刻起就得面对四种苦。生老病死。这是苦早在两千多年前已被伟大的佛陀用不同方式告诉了我们。佛陀也把如何解救的方法告诉了我们。然而终生就是如此的顽强。不愿听从。
不同的病人来自不同的社会阶级。但因为是政府医院看到的都是收入中下阶级的人们。有的已辛苦一辈子，刚好是幸福的时候。无奈的是病魔看上了他。饱经了为生活材米油盐 酱醋茶奔波的时光，如今却得与病魔打交道。有的孩子们都还没成家立业就得面对着死亡的来临。人生有多痛苦就有多苦。有多无奈就有多无奈。
人的一生好像已被编排好了似的。幼童的天真，求学的时光，为生活打拼，结婚生子，岁月不饶人，身体渐渐衰落衰老。。。看着孩子成家抱孙子。。。等待着判决的那一天。乍听下好像很可怕但却是千真万确的事实。
人生的意义是什么呢？我们应以什么为重？事业？爱情？家人？公益？财富？权利？每个人都有他所认为对的价值观。没有人能否决别人的价值观。这价值观也随着岁月与所见所闻所改变。我现在所认为重要的也许若干年后我已不在眷恋。
人生无奈。把握当下。做好自己。不违背良心。获得快乐。
这听起来很简单但其实一点也不。
愿与你共勉之。
每星期二我都会到医院去上课。看着不同个案的病人。我们从他们的身上学到从课本上学不到的知识。也学会医生如何为病人看病。星期二的课很沉重。有得在拥挤与闷热的医院里上课。这也是人生的另一种体验。这些我都能克服。然而我却看到也许一般人所看不到的一面。人生就是如此的无奈。
我们从出生的那一刻起就得面对四种苦。生老病死。这是苦早在两千多年前已被伟大的佛陀用不同方式告诉了我们。佛陀也把如何解救的方法告诉了我们。然而终生就是如此的顽强。不愿听从。
不同的病人来自不同的社会阶级。但因为是政府医院看到的都是收入中下阶级的人们。有的已辛苦一辈子，刚好是幸福的时候。无奈的是病魔看上了他。饱经了为生活材米油盐 酱醋茶奔波的时光，如今却得与病魔打交道。有的孩子们都还没成家立业就得面对着死亡的来临。人生有多痛苦就有多苦。有多无奈就有多无奈。
人的一生好像已被编排好了似的。幼童的天真，求学的时光，为生活打拼，结婚生子，岁月不饶人，身体渐渐衰落衰老。。。看着孩子成家抱孙子。。。等待着判决的那一天。乍听下好像很可怕但却是千真万确的事实。
人生的意义是什么呢？我们应以什么为重？事业？爱情？家人？公益？财富？权利？每个人都有他所认为对的价值观。没有人能否决别人的价值观。这价值观也随着岁月与所见所闻所改变。我现在所认为重要的也许若干年后我已不在眷恋。
人生无奈。把握当下。做好自己。不违背良心。获得快乐。
这听起来很简单但其实一点也不。
愿与你共勉之。
2010年5月28日星期五
CHANGE
It has been a long time i never update my blog. Actually i got plenty of things which i wanted to share here but i am just too lazy to do so. Im so sorry for that.
The life of being a student really not easy. Especially your course is a five years course and you deal with human beings. The long duration make me suffocated. I think the same applied to my coursemates also. When your friends start graduate and working while you still a student. The gap between us will eventually grow wider. Dealing with patients is really not easy. Somemore i am just a student and sometime the patient will say " i thought is the doctor will do treatment on me." Somemore we need to follow the proper examination and diagnosis, it make each appointment takes a longer time and patients need to come frequently. That really depends on the compliance of the patients. But my lecturer told us that we must polish the way we communicate with the patients in order to gain the confidence of patient on us who are still a student.
Then as we grow older, we start to bore with the single life and prefer someone to accompany us and give us encouragement and share the hustle bustle of everyday life. We some ppl started to look for a companion. Some ppl are very brave to look for one and take initiative to start a relationship. Some ppl need the courage from his/her friends that around to take initiative. Some will ask the admire one to go out and trying to see if they are mean to be together. Some will just sit and wait for god to give him/her one. I cant comment on this coz i am still single and i don really wan a relationship by now. So ppl, when you see what i had written here... NO OFFENCE ah... ( my coursemates like to say NO OFFENCE recently)
Nothing is permanent. This is according to Buddism. I fully agree with this simple yet cruel truth. That is why the american president say CHANGE. Recently the world really change a lots. The weather is changing. The people is changing. The goverment is changing. Everything is changing. Myself is also changing. Sometime im wondering what do i wan actually? I wan money? family? love? spiritual? I am lost. At first i choose dentistry as my future field because i wan to help ppl especially those who are poor and cant affort the bill. But now i start thinking to make money future. I wan to be a specialist dentist coz i wan to earn more. I really hate myself sometime. HAHA. But my mom asked me not to think so much. Concentrate on my study first. So i think what she said is quite true. Think more will make me become a schizophrenic. LOLs...
Let's stop here... to be continue...
The life of being a student really not easy. Especially your course is a five years course and you deal with human beings. The long duration make me suffocated. I think the same applied to my coursemates also. When your friends start graduate and working while you still a student. The gap between us will eventually grow wider. Dealing with patients is really not easy. Somemore i am just a student and sometime the patient will say " i thought is the doctor will do treatment on me." Somemore we need to follow the proper examination and diagnosis, it make each appointment takes a longer time and patients need to come frequently. That really depends on the compliance of the patients. But my lecturer told us that we must polish the way we communicate with the patients in order to gain the confidence of patient on us who are still a student.
Then as we grow older, we start to bore with the single life and prefer someone to accompany us and give us encouragement and share the hustle bustle of everyday life. We some ppl started to look for a companion. Some ppl are very brave to look for one and take initiative to start a relationship. Some ppl need the courage from his/her friends that around to take initiative. Some will ask the admire one to go out and trying to see if they are mean to be together. Some will just sit and wait for god to give him/her one. I cant comment on this coz i am still single and i don really wan a relationship by now. So ppl, when you see what i had written here... NO OFFENCE ah... ( my coursemates like to say NO OFFENCE recently)
Nothing is permanent. This is according to Buddism. I fully agree with this simple yet cruel truth. That is why the american president say CHANGE. Recently the world really change a lots. The weather is changing. The people is changing. The goverment is changing. Everything is changing. Myself is also changing. Sometime im wondering what do i wan actually? I wan money? family? love? spiritual? I am lost. At first i choose dentistry as my future field because i wan to help ppl especially those who are poor and cant affort the bill. But now i start thinking to make money future. I wan to be a specialist dentist coz i wan to earn more. I really hate myself sometime. HAHA. But my mom asked me not to think so much. Concentrate on my study first. So i think what she said is quite true. Think more will make me become a schizophrenic. LOLs...
Let's stop here... to be continue...
2010年2月20日星期六
2010年1月10日星期日
Summary of the first week of 2010
The best word to summarize my first week of 2010 is BUSY.
Monday: I been busy for the reading the oral pathology text book coz got one presention on thursday. I also need to prepare the power point for it.
Tuesday: I went to HUKM to attent the 8th dental students' colloquium. It is interesting and i really learn a lot from this events.
Wednesday: study hard for oral pathology and also the Oral surgery seminar.
Thursday: Morning got OP presentation and afternoon got OS seminar. The overall of the OP presentation is good. Dato prof. dr hashim said the presentation is well done. The os seminar also not bad. hehe....
Friday: Read the very thick periodontology text book.
Saturday: Relaxing. Went to mid valley to meet my friends. Night time i did vacum and mop my hostel.
Sunday: Attenting the MDA public forum. Completed the perio assignment.
Monday: I been busy for the reading the oral pathology text book coz got one presention on thursday. I also need to prepare the power point for it.
Tuesday: I went to HUKM to attent the 8th dental students' colloquium. It is interesting and i really learn a lot from this events.
Wednesday: study hard for oral pathology and also the Oral surgery seminar.
Thursday: Morning got OP presentation and afternoon got OS seminar. The overall of the OP presentation is good. Dato prof. dr hashim said the presentation is well done. The os seminar also not bad. hehe....
Friday: Read the very thick periodontology text book.
Saturday: Relaxing. Went to mid valley to meet my friends. Night time i did vacum and mop my hostel.
Sunday: Attenting the MDA public forum. Completed the perio assignment.
2010年1月6日星期三
草食男
所谓的“草食男”，就是像食草动物一样，他们友善温和，但在婚恋关系上却总
少了些男子汉应有的主动，所以他们最大的特征就是
不会积极去追求恋爱或性爱方面的事情，而喜欢保持不温不火的步调和女孩子在一起。
放眼望去，你就会发现80、90后的男人越来越多地具备了“草食性”倾向，
一场“草食化运动”似乎在全世界的男人中悄然兴起。
之所以会产生这样的现象，主要有几个原因：
首先，飞速变化的成长环境影响了他们的性格。
当代“草食男”从出生到现在，这短短的二三十年其实是世界变化最快的时期。
因为外界变化大，所以他们对未来有着很多焦虑和不确定性，由此就缺乏了自信与激情。
上一个时代的男人通常认为，凡事只要努力就一定有所收获，而这个时代的年轻男人就大大不同，
感到很多事情不是自己所能掌控的，因此也就贴上了“草食男”的基本标签：
缺乏自信，也缺乏生活激情，而这一点很容易就会反映到他们的婚姻经营上头。
第二，经济压力过大。
这缘于过去二十年来房价、物价的飞速上涨。对一个刚开始工作的年轻男子来说，
要买车买房，其实压力是不小的。婚姻还需经济实力的支持，
所以迫于经济压力，他们对婚姻的态度是很好，但不需强求。
第三，个性比较被动，既不愿承担过多责任，也不想受到太多伤害。
“草食男”的逻辑是，如果过于积极主动地追求女性，最后可能会惹来一堆麻烦，
甚至会让自己受到无谓的伤害，所以他们就沿袭了草食性动物的本性——
温和、友善、被动、攻击性低、没有很大的成就动机，
认为“你爱我很好，你不爱我也无所谓，我不一定需要轰轰烈烈的爱情。”
很多时候你会发现，跟他们的关系总是处于“比友情多，但不及爱情”的状态。
相对于“肉食男”一旦嗅到爱情的气息，就会积极地发动攻势将爱情揽入怀中，
“草食男”的哲学是，敌不动我不动
我是否是草食男？
2010年1月3日星期日
Resolutions for 2010
The first decade of 21 centery had just been engraved into history.
New year starts will new resolutions.
Hopefully this year will be a smooth and fruitful year for me and also the people around me.
Here are the resolutions for 2010...
1. Pay more concentration on my study and hope to get better results.
2. Read more books to open up my narrow thinking.
3. Read some buddhist books for self and mind enrichment. And also able to participate at least one Leong Emperor Recitation.
5. Visit to one place with my family and beg-pack to taiwan with my friends.
6. Visit to KK and also conquer Mount Kinabalu. ( September trip)
7. Participate in some forms of volunteer work to help and serve the public and community.
8. Make myself more presentable. Get rid-of facial pimple problem and slim down. HEHE.
~to be continue....
New year starts will new resolutions.
Hopefully this year will be a smooth and fruitful year for me and also the people around me.
Here are the resolutions for 2010...
1. Pay more concentration on my study and hope to get better results.
2. Read more books to open up my narrow thinking.
3. Read some buddhist books for self and mind enrichment. And also able to participate at least one Leong Emperor Recitation.
5. Visit to one place with my family and beg-pack to taiwan with my friends.
6. Visit to KK and also conquer Mount Kinabalu. ( September trip)
7. Participate in some forms of volunteer work to help and serve the public and community.
8. Make myself more presentable. Get rid-of facial pimple problem and slim down. HEHE.
~to be continue....
2009年12月24日星期四
Merry Christmas
This Christmas most probably be the first Christmas in KL for me. Nothing special. Hanged out with friends and had a super nice but yet cruel steamboat dinner. Y i said so? Because the prawn they served is still ALIVE. Oh.. My godness... If i know they will served me alive prawn at the begining... i think i will reject to go there. I think im so cold-blooded.
Let talk abt this year's Christmas presents. I did buy somethings for myself. I got myself a CK Free perfume, a pair of leather shoes which i been searching for it for years liao, and one basic set of facial care products. These few things already costed me abt rm1K.
Christmas month is a great shopping time in Malaysia even though the stuff in malaysia are bloody expensive as compare to some others nearby country. But " boh-pian" lo.... So sorry for my Daddy coz he going to pay for me for all that. And 3rd year of dental student life also need to spend a lot to buy lot of to-be-waiting-for-reading book.
I got 2 christmas gifts this year. Both also are Tie which is one of the things that i need the most since i need to be in formal suit to school everyday. Thank for my friends. I like the tie so so so much.
Before i stop here, i would like to say apology to all of my lovely friends coz before christmas i planned to send christmas card to those play a important role in my life. But im too busy and cant manage to do that. Sorry. Hope that i can pursue my promise for the coming Chinese New Year.
>< Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.....
Let talk abt this year's Christmas presents. I did buy somethings for myself. I got myself a CK Free perfume, a pair of leather shoes which i been searching for it for years liao, and one basic set of facial care products. These few things already costed me abt rm1K.
Christmas month is a great shopping time in Malaysia even though the stuff in malaysia are bloody expensive as compare to some others nearby country. But " boh-pian" lo.... So sorry for my Daddy coz he going to pay for me for all that. And 3rd year of dental student life also need to spend a lot to buy lot of to-be-waiting-for-reading book.
I got 2 christmas gifts this year. Both also are Tie which is one of the things that i need the most since i need to be in formal suit to school everyday. Thank for my friends. I like the tie so so so much.
Before i stop here, i would like to say apology to all of my lovely friends coz before christmas i planned to send christmas card to those play a important role in my life. But im too busy and cant manage to do that. Sorry. Hope that i can pursue my promise for the coming Chinese New Year.
>< Merry Christmas and Happy New Year.....
2009年8月23日星期日
百味百货-1
在百货公司里可以看到形形色色的人与事.
有的人来也匆匆去也匆匆.他们的步伐是我所更不上的.因为我不喜欢这种感觉.人生短短为何不漫下脚步来看看生变的人与物呢?
也有人悠哉游哉的逛着.慢慢的看.慢慢的欣赏.
我爱逛街的一个原因是我爱看周遭的东西.更实在的说我喜欢看人.不同人有着不同的表情.告诉我不同的故事.也让我联想起不同的东西.
看到满脸忧愁的人, 也许他买不到他心爱的东西?
笑容满面的他, 是否得到了他想要的东西?还是在商场里遇上多年的朋友?看见心仪的对象?
有的人很落寞.是否和另一半吵架了?
有的漫无目的的走.前面的人生对他而言是否也是无目的的呢?
一张脸可以述说千千万万的故事.不同的人有着不同的精彩.也带着不同的遗憾.
笔者当下的表情有怎样的呢?
有的人来也匆匆去也匆匆.他们的步伐是我所更不上的.因为我不喜欢这种感觉.人生短短为何不漫下脚步来看看生变的人与物呢?
也有人悠哉游哉的逛着.慢慢的看.慢慢的欣赏.
我爱逛街的一个原因是我爱看周遭的东西.更实在的说我喜欢看人.不同人有着不同的表情.告诉我不同的故事.也让我联想起不同的东西.
看到满脸忧愁的人, 也许他买不到他心爱的东西?
笑容满面的他, 是否得到了他想要的东西?还是在商场里遇上多年的朋友?看见心仪的对象?
有的人很落寞.是否和另一半吵架了?
有的漫无目的的走.前面的人生对他而言是否也是无目的的呢?
一张脸可以述说千千万万的故事.不同的人有着不同的精彩.也带着不同的遗憾.
笔者当下的表情有怎样的呢?
2009年7月25日星期六
Post-holiday mood
I just finished enjoy my one week semesta break. Yes. It is just one week! I wish i cound get a longer sem break. Howeverm it is better than do not have. So im really appreciate it.
I spend most of the sem break time at KL also. Accompany my mother to shop. Shop everyday. Really tired. Hehe.
Started the second half of Year 2 second sem one week liao. But im still very lazy to do revision even though the final is at the corner dy. Abt 5 weeks time i think.
As usual everyday wake up at 7 and bath get ready to college. Then come back with a tired body. Take a nap then go out for dinner. Wat a boring life. I deserve for that? HAIH. Still need to keep going with this kind of life for the remaining 3 years.
Something really make me happy maybe is i planning to go taiwan during the 6 weeks break. It maybe a 2 weeks trip like tat. Easy going. Sound so excited. HAHA. I wish to go there since im 18 years old. But everytime i also miss the chance.
I become a very quiet person recently. I dun know Y. Just felt dun like to talk. Weird rite?
I addicted to a taiwan entertaiment show recently. Kang Xi Lai le 康熙来了. I can watch few episode one day. haih... But it really fun.
I spend most of the sem break time at KL also. Accompany my mother to shop. Shop everyday. Really tired. Hehe.
Started the second half of Year 2 second sem one week liao. But im still very lazy to do revision even though the final is at the corner dy. Abt 5 weeks time i think.
As usual everyday wake up at 7 and bath get ready to college. Then come back with a tired body. Take a nap then go out for dinner. Wat a boring life. I deserve for that? HAIH. Still need to keep going with this kind of life for the remaining 3 years.
Something really make me happy maybe is i planning to go taiwan during the 6 weeks break. It maybe a 2 weeks trip like tat. Easy going. Sound so excited. HAHA. I wish to go there since im 18 years old. But everytime i also miss the chance.
I become a very quiet person recently. I dun know Y. Just felt dun like to talk. Weird rite?
I addicted to a taiwan entertaiment show recently. Kang Xi Lai le 康熙来了. I can watch few episode one day. haih... But it really fun.
2009年7月13日星期一
Dinner with parents' friends
Tonight i had a very nice time with my parents and theirs friends at a quite high class hotel in Cameron Highlands. Here are some of the photo i managed to capture. Have a look first...
How the food look like? Nice? Delicious?
Haha.... the most important thing i wan to tell here is ...
All this food are vegeterian food.
HAHA... unbelieveable? Pls... believe it.
Tonight really had a nice time and nice food. Enjoy.
2009年7月6日星期一
大学新生 4要.4不要
从报纸上读到的.个人觉得还蛮有意思的.所以想和大家一起分享.
要:
一) 要学: 付出一番努力
二) 要玩：玩要玩得有目的，玩出“价值”来
三）要观察：善于观察身边人和事
四）要勤思考：观察之后，便要学会思考
不要：
一）不要枉自尊大：刚进大学不能“轻狂”，你目前“什么都不是”
二）不要锋芒毕露：你涉世不深，涉猎不广，年青气盛又容易偏激。最好先多看多听，三思而行
三）不要勾心斗角：要团结朋友，舍友
四）不要为情所困：三/四年大学还有更重要的事等你去做
~我决的很有意思也很值得好好探讨一番。愿在看得你与我共勉之。
要:
一) 要学: 付出一番努力
二) 要玩：玩要玩得有目的，玩出“价值”来
三）要观察：善于观察身边人和事
四）要勤思考：观察之后，便要学会思考
不要：
一）不要枉自尊大：刚进大学不能“轻狂”，你目前“什么都不是”
二）不要锋芒毕露：你涉世不深，涉猎不广，年青气盛又容易偏激。最好先多看多听，三思而行
三）不要勾心斗角：要团结朋友，舍友
四）不要为情所困：三/四年大学还有更重要的事等你去做
~我决的很有意思也很值得好好探讨一番。愿在看得你与我共勉之。
2009年7月2日星期四
Message from Ms Rachel Kerk
ALL DDS STUDENT PAY ATTENTION
here sum of my suggestion for exam ppl:
*1.slip early during exam
*2.can burn midnite oil during stdy week
*3.not to eat mageemee..bt nutrient food
*4.do execise if posible..
*5.to increase ur memory can listen some mozart music or shaking ur finger n toes to make them more active
*6.rewrite important tings b4 the day of exam
*7.take good care of health n nt to sick
*8.strawberry,blueberries,cranberries will improve memory
*9.dunt eat too much sour although it makes u awake due to it lost ur memory
*10.avoid taking sweet tings n oily food which may cause memory to lost
*tada...tatz my suggestion*gud luck in midterm
This are some suggestion from my prospective junior MISS RACHEL KERK to her prospective senoirs and wish good luck for the coming midterm.
PS:This weekend is Mahsa Open Day.
here sum of my suggestion for exam ppl:
*1.slip early during exam
*2.can burn midnite oil during stdy week
*3.not to eat mageemee..bt nutrient food
*4.do execise if posible..
*5.to increase ur memory can listen some mozart music or shaking ur finger n toes to make them more active
*6.rewrite important tings b4 the day of exam
*7.take good care of health n nt to sick
*8.strawberry,blueberries,cranberries will improve memory
*9.dunt eat too much sour although it makes u awake due to it lost ur memory
*10.avoid taking sweet tings n oily food which may cause memory to lost
*tada...tatz my suggestion*gud luck in midterm
This are some suggestion from my prospective junior MISS RACHEL KERK to her prospective senoirs and wish good luck for the coming midterm.
PS:This weekend is Mahsa Open Day.
2009年6月29日星期一
Midterm near the corner
Time passed so fast. The first 10 weeks of second year second sem almost gone. This mean the mid term test also coming soon. And i still got lot to be revise back coz this 10weeks i really very lazy and cant concentrate in class.
For pharmacology.. needs to study all anti-microbial drug , insulin, oral hypoglycemic, autocoid and lots....
For microbiology, all immunology and respiratory tract infection , cardiac infection and bone ....
For pathology... also lot to study....
How can i manage to study all this in one week? God Bless Me.... haha....
My other housemates also start burning mid-oil dy.... Teo ken and ah Y... ahha....
ANd i think others also...
good luck...
ps: today pharmacology QnA section really make me down. I cant remember wat i studies. HAIH... old man dy....
For pharmacology.. needs to study all anti-microbial drug , insulin, oral hypoglycemic, autocoid and lots....
For microbiology, all immunology and respiratory tract infection , cardiac infection and bone ....
For pathology... also lot to study....
How can i manage to study all this in one week? God Bless Me.... haha....
My other housemates also start burning mid-oil dy.... Teo ken and ah Y... ahha....
ANd i think others also...
good luck...
ps: today pharmacology QnA section really make me down. I cant remember wat i studies. HAIH... old man dy....
2009年6月25日星期四
My Daddy and Mummy
I LOVE MY PARENTS. "LOVE"
MY LOVELY DADDY OH....
MY LOVELY MOMMY
SPECIAL GIFT FOR MY SPECIAL DADDY FOR FATHER'S DAY
THAT'S ME! UNBELIEVABLE RIGHT? HAHA. 
WITH MY MOM DURING NEPAL TRIP 2005.
HAHA....
DAD,MOM... I MISS YOU !
2009年6月24日星期三
寂寞与孤单
什么是寂寞呢?
什么又是孤单呢?
两者是否相同呢？
寂寞并不是当你一个人时。而孤单的当下就只有你一人。
在一般朋友中，当你们话不投机时，你可以是寂寞的。但你却不孤单。至少还有人在你身边吧。
当你一人时你可以是孤单的但你不一定寂寞。你享受孤单的感觉。无拘无束。要做什么就做。没有什么心理负担。
孤单也可以是寂寞的。当你一人独处的同时你又迷失了方向。 你是可悲的。你是寂寞的。你是痛苦的。你什么都不是。你觉得你是多余的。但不。你应该振作起来。好好规划你的人生。人生其实就掌握在你的手里。别气馁。
朋友告诉我说：不是因为寂寞而想你，而是因为想你而觉得寂寞。这是句简单的话。 但却让说者陷入一个无法用言语来形容的窘境。
寂寞与孤单。
两个看似简单的词却包含了很深的意义。如何诠释着两个字就的看说者或用者当时的意境吧。
现在的我有时如何诠释着两个词呢？
什么又是孤单呢?
两者是否相同呢？
寂寞并不是当你一个人时。而孤单的当下就只有你一人。
在一般朋友中，当你们话不投机时，你可以是寂寞的。但你却不孤单。至少还有人在你身边吧。
当你一人时你可以是孤单的但你不一定寂寞。你享受孤单的感觉。无拘无束。要做什么就做。没有什么心理负担。
孤单也可以是寂寞的。当你一人独处的同时你又迷失了方向。 你是可悲的。你是寂寞的。你是痛苦的。你什么都不是。你觉得你是多余的。但不。你应该振作起来。好好规划你的人生。人生其实就掌握在你的手里。别气馁。
朋友告诉我说：不是因为寂寞而想你，而是因为想你而觉得寂寞。这是句简单的话。 但却让说者陷入一个无法用言语来形容的窘境。
寂寞与孤单。
两个看似简单的词却包含了很深的意义。如何诠释着两个字就的看说者或用者当时的意境吧。
现在的我有时如何诠释着两个词呢？
2009年6月13日星期六
Update of JUNE
I really cant figure out any words that can describe my recent life. But now is a tough time for me to go through and i really need to be stronger in order to get rid of all the bad things happen on me recently.
When u grow up, u really will felt that u r alone. No one will accompany you all the time and you really need to learn how to bear with the loneliness helpless. I hope i can get rid of it.
I saw lots of things that i like recently. But the problem is i dun have enough money to own all of them. HAHA. Hope that i got one unlimited limit credit card and i no need to pay back for it. I saw one very nice Nike sneaker and it costs rm 500. I bought a swatch watch last week and i saw other one also very nice. That one cost rm 495. And the most expensive one is the G~~c~ wallet which cost rm1190. HAHA.... Hope got ppl buy all this for me. Sound like im looking for sugar dad or sugar mom. HAHA....
Thursday the official from LANS( i forgot the new name of LANS) visited my Uni Col. And i am invited for the interview which i no really interested to go. The last question they asked really make lot of us headache. " You wan a mahsa degree or trisakti degree?" This really hard to answer since we dun know which one better. But mahsa management really sucks. Luckily the lecturers all are pretty good. If not i think i will say bye to this college dy. Ops... i shouldn't said college coz mahsa also got the Uni. COllege title since april i think. HAHA....FUnny
The hot weather of KL really make everyone scare of it. That y i choose to escape back to Cameron Highlands this weekend. I like cameron so much. But when i need to head back to KL i always felt sad. Haih...
Another problem i faced recently is i cant get a condo uni which my parent plan to invest. One stupid owner make me into trouble. He said wan to sale already but when we wan go to bank in the deposit he refuse to sale the unit. WTH... and it reallly hard to get a wellkeep condo somemore i wan a lowrise unit. HAIH... Buddha and bodhisattva. ... pls bless me get a unit soon.
When u grow up, u really will felt that u r alone. No one will accompany you all the time and you really need to learn how to bear with the loneliness helpless. I hope i can get rid of it.
I saw lots of things that i like recently. But the problem is i dun have enough money to own all of them. HAHA. Hope that i got one unlimited limit credit card and i no need to pay back for it. I saw one very nice Nike sneaker and it costs rm 500. I bought a swatch watch last week and i saw other one also very nice. That one cost rm 495. And the most expensive one is the G~~c~ wallet which cost rm1190. HAHA.... Hope got ppl buy all this for me. Sound like im looking for sugar dad or sugar mom. HAHA....
Thursday the official from LANS( i forgot the new name of LANS) visited my Uni Col. And i am invited for the interview which i no really interested to go. The last question they asked really make lot of us headache. " You wan a mahsa degree or trisakti degree?" This really hard to answer since we dun know which one better. But mahsa management really sucks. Luckily the lecturers all are pretty good. If not i think i will say bye to this college dy. Ops... i shouldn't said college coz mahsa also got the Uni. COllege title since april i think. HAHA....FUnny
The hot weather of KL really make everyone scare of it. That y i choose to escape back to Cameron Highlands this weekend. I like cameron so much. But when i need to head back to KL i always felt sad. Haih...
Another problem i faced recently is i cant get a condo uni which my parent plan to invest. One stupid owner make me into trouble. He said wan to sale already but when we wan go to bank in the deposit he refuse to sale the unit. WTH... and it reallly hard to get a wellkeep condo somemore i wan a lowrise unit. HAIH... Buddha and bodhisattva. ... pls bless me get a unit soon.
2009年5月21日星期四
十字路
以前的我都很想做令大众注目的人。在一个社团里我会设法的表现好我自己。以便能够被委以重任。也正因为这样让我看到了所谓的人性。人性是丑陋的。很多人否会不择手段以便达到目标。渐渐的我对人有了新的认知。我尽量在人前掩饰自己的弱点和好好变现自己。
来到了大学深造，我被委任为班级代表。这无疑是对我的一个嘉许也是一个肯定。我对自己陈诺我好好好的做。
然而事事都并非我们所想象的那么简单。这条路走起来还蛮颠簸的。遇到了很多的钉子。第一也许是管理单位并没有协调好许多的事情。以致很多问题的产生。从教授，课室，时间表，到学生管理上都出了很大的问题。第二也许是同学们都是二十来岁的成人了，自然很难调驭。
第一年还算过的去。第二学年所要做的东西可说跟多了。让我忙得不可开交。曾提议要放弃却被上头单位给拒绝了。我也唯有硬着头皮去做。
然而最近所发生的一些事情又让我萌起了辞职的念头。我觉得班里有一部分的人对我很不满。处处都让我看他们的面色。拜托啦，有时我也使被情势所趋得说一些不中听的话。你们也不需要以那难堪的面色回应吧。我没这个必要去看你们那死人面色。
课业的繁忙加上得为他们安排很多的事情真然我吃不消。还得受近别人的揶揄。我讨厌这样的日子。
一些教授让我帮帮成绩不理想的朋友。但试想想我到底能够做些什么呢？一番好意相劝却让人反感。但坐视不理谈何容易呢？我又一次走到人生的十字路口了。
江山易改，但本性难移。对别人的求学态度我又怎么敢多言呢？毕竟我也不是什么好榜样。
人生不如意之事十之八九。但这念头我又遇到很多不如意事。情何以堪阿。看来要彻底的解决问题就是抽离这事吧？我不是坐视不理的人。看来我有的从新考虑辞职了吧？人生的十字路何其多阿。感慨感慨。。。
来到了大学深造，我被委任为班级代表。这无疑是对我的一个嘉许也是一个肯定。我对自己陈诺我好好好的做。
然而事事都并非我们所想象的那么简单。这条路走起来还蛮颠簸的。遇到了很多的钉子。第一也许是管理单位并没有协调好许多的事情。以致很多问题的产生。从教授，课室，时间表，到学生管理上都出了很大的问题。第二也许是同学们都是二十来岁的成人了，自然很难调驭。
第一年还算过的去。第二学年所要做的东西可说跟多了。让我忙得不可开交。曾提议要放弃却被上头单位给拒绝了。我也唯有硬着头皮去做。
然而最近所发生的一些事情又让我萌起了辞职的念头。我觉得班里有一部分的人对我很不满。处处都让我看他们的面色。拜托啦，有时我也使被情势所趋得说一些不中听的话。你们也不需要以那难堪的面色回应吧。我没这个必要去看你们那死人面色。
课业的繁忙加上得为他们安排很多的事情真然我吃不消。还得受近别人的揶揄。我讨厌这样的日子。
一些教授让我帮帮成绩不理想的朋友。但试想想我到底能够做些什么呢？一番好意相劝却让人反感。但坐视不理谈何容易呢？我又一次走到人生的十字路口了。
江山易改，但本性难移。对别人的求学态度我又怎么敢多言呢？毕竟我也不是什么好榜样。
人生不如意之事十之八九。但这念头我又遇到很多不如意事。情何以堪阿。看来要彻底的解决问题就是抽离这事吧？我不是坐视不理的人。看来我有的从新考虑辞职了吧？人生的十字路何其多阿。感慨感慨。。。
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